I just finished the “two weeks on the life and teachings of Jesus.” I had been craving to read my bible I hadn’t read it in so long. The two weeks were drawn out about a month between my hiking trip and orientation and engineering camp and vacation. It is the saddest feeling in the world to feel like I don’t have time for my bible. I do have time I’m just not disciplined enough. It’s something I need to work on. Especially with college beginning soon. How will I ever survive if I’m not disciplined enough to do the things I long to do. The last two days I read in one day because I wanted to. It was John 20 and Luke 24 the resurrection of Jesus and His appearance to His disciples and on the way to Emmaus. The part that stood out the most to me was that His beloved friends and disciples didn’t believe the news they heard; they insisted on seeing and touching before they would believe. I thought that was incredibly ludicrous that the people closest to Him would doubt His return. It just makes me realize we all have our doubts and it is only natural. They were there first hand and still had their doubts but I think that I can overcome those doubts. I know I can. I believe in God and Jesus being His Holy son and the Holy spirit and the coexistence of the three in one being. I want to fall in love with God. I want to speak to Him every minute of every day and feel His loving embrace. I’m getting there. I know He already holds me against His chest and loves me, I just need to reciprocate the best that I can.